Ugh

Honestly, all you folks with regularly-updated personal blogs—I don’t know how you do it.

When I started this thing, back in…wow, late October of ‘05, I was afraid of one thing: that I wouldn’t have enough to say. I’d tell everyone about this blog, and even try to attract readers I didn’t know in real life, and then I’d just go blank. And surprise, surprise, that’s pretty much where I am right now.

Oh, I’ve got plenty of excuses. I’ve been working a lot lately, and rarely feel like pounding out a blog post when I get home. My free time is valuable and all too scarce; I try to establish a delicate balance between spending time with friends, spending time with my girlfriend Laura, and spending time alone (which is important for introverts like yours truly). Furthermore, I can be a very private person; particularly since people I know in person sometimes read this blog, I often don’t feel comfortable writing about every little thing that happens to me.

So, yeah, excuses abound. But a lot of the time, quite frankly, I just can’t think of a damn thing to say. Focus is a big problem. After all, when you run across a blog that’s about programming, IT, movies, games, and personal stuff, all rolled into one…well, unless you’re me, you’re probably not going to be all that interested. Throw infrequent updates into the mix and you’ve got a blog that nobody cares about—including yourself.

The whole thing kind of makes me feel inadequate. I have a problem with starting things and never finishing them. I've got a million creative projects on my computer hard drive—programs, games, short stories, and so on—that I've abandoned for God knows what reason. It's a flaw of mine, and it drives me batty sometimes.

Anyway…I’m not saying I’m giving up on this sumbitch or anything. But I figured that one thing blogs are good for is venting, so I might as well take advantage. Any excuse to post something, eh?

-Will